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Post by TRZ-Trazz on Oct 22, 2016 17:40:46 GMT -4
That's... That's just wow.
I mean, I've been upset. For months. And recently, it's gotten bad enough to where I wanted to jump in front of a moving bus at school. Right there, in front of everyone. Luckily I didn't. Didn't want to embarrass myself if I survived. But then, after that, I started thinking about it more. Ugh... And more after that...
But, yeah. And reasons why I thought that way, I have no idea how to explain. I guess you could say I was mad? Not at everyone, but at myself. Which I understand now, is it's a stupid thing to become depressed about. And it sucked, because I lost all motivation to do anything. Draw, play video games, that sort of stuff. And I also HATED to go out in public. I still do.
I've been getting better, though. But all I really wanted to say was that I've been feeling awful these last few weeks (months?), and I had no idea why or whom to talk to. Funny thing is, I didn't know who to talk to, so I ended up talking to everyone. Only three friends, though. Parents don't (seem to) care as much. Hell, I even talked to Kakei about it. He's one of the three. I've gotten to talk to someone, but I had to do that myself. No one noticed, which I don't care about.
Let's see.. What else do I explain...
I don't know. All I know is that I was upset, and I wanted to talk to someone. Especially an adult this time.
Thanks, Zero. I can always count on you for helpful advice.
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Post by Zero on Oct 22, 2016 21:56:08 GMT -4
So you're doing better now?
I'll tell you what my father told me:
There are many things you'll struggle to figure out, and you'll be knocked down many a time. Those are GROWING PAINS, and we all endured them. Be smart. Always have a backup plan career-wise. Keep your eye simple. Be strong, but not abusive. Be meek, but not weak.
And you know what, Trazz? I'm still figuring things out. It never really ends, but you can be satisfied with how far you've gotten so far.
Go further.
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Post by TRZ-Trazz on Oct 23, 2016 0:04:12 GMT -4
That's amazing, Zero. I hear your dad can be harsh, but he's wise.
Heh.. Almost as wise as you.
Yes. I've been getting better. I think. At least, the bad thoughts haven't been around as much as they were a week ago... Or once Monday, I suppose. And mainly, I am satisfied with what I got. Or what I do. What I worry though, is if other people are satisfied.
I just thought l might as well get one last friend who can help, in case my thoughts do happen to affect me badly again.
Cause that's what it's been. Thinking. That's why I was, maybe am being this way. I can't tell whether I've been thinking too much, instead of sharing them out loud to other people, or if I've just been thinking of myself in a bad perspective.
For the longest time, I've thought of myself as a bad person. Bad for many reasons. Maybe I still do. I'm honestly not sure. But, whatever I think of myself, it's bad. Or thought of, I should say.
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Post by steelstar on Apr 6, 2017 12:43:02 GMT -4
Anybody here collect typewriters? I have four technically, but only two of them work. I type most of my poetry and stories on my electric typewriter, and I think it works better than my laptop.
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Post by Agai Lazen on Apr 6, 2017 13:53:12 GMT -4
I think that's a relatively unique hobby, pal.
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Post by Koith on Oct 26, 2017 0:02:21 GMT -4
Writing fictions, fanfics, while plotting and reshaping the core script and plotting the new for Reichmacht and its' revelation consumed most of my time. Yeah, as I couldn't draw properly, then writing was giving me a joy, though sometimes writing with an extra exertion of energy broke me down sometimes. It's always fun for doing so.
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