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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 19:51:37 GMT -4
Power corrupts. And who has more power than I, Zero?
Well that's just the problem isn't it? I do have the power here.
All this time I thought I could use this power to benefit everyone. I wanted everyone to be happy. But not everyone is.
I adhere to a strict code of value. I've always used it in my judgment. Somewhere along the way I've seem to have lost sight of it. Why? How?
I never realized how alone I really was in this.
I tried to compromise, but it wasn't enough. It's like I have to give all of me to keep everyone happy. I would have to abandon everything I believe in. But I can't do it. I just can't. IT'S NOT FAIR!
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Fair. Fair is only fair if it's a convenience.
Damn.
DAMMIT!!!
DAMN THE RULES! DAMN EVERYTHING I'VE DONE! DAMN ALL I'VE TRIED!
DAMN IT ALL!!!
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Post by OT on Feb 16, 2008 20:47:26 GMT -4
Whoa, chillax dude. I may have disagreed with your actions in the past but I believe you are a good admin that have a good sense of whats right and wrong. You just gotta realize that you can't make everyone happy all the time when you're the one making the big decisions.
Remember, that sometimes it isn't the most popular guy that gets the job done, and sometimes you have to play that position. You just gotta pull through.
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Post by White Lightning on Feb 16, 2008 21:00:00 GMT -4
I second OT. Not everyone may be happy and agree with the choices you make, and mAy not support you, but look to the people who do. Like ME! Besides, you put your heart and soul into this forum, just like I do. But, I understand that not everyone will aprove of the work I do, and my actions. In my oppion, you are the BEST leader I have ever met.
The burdon of leader may become stressfull and seem unbarebale at times, but keep on holding on to your will, and you WILL come out alive! You have done this before, and you WILL do it AGIAN!
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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 21:20:45 GMT -4
When you're a leader, you have to be an example, a symbol. I can't afford to make mistakes. But when I do like I did today, everyone suffers. It's demoralizing, faith breaking, untrust worthy, and disillusioning.
You're my best friend here Kayla, but I need more than a friends opinion. I need to hear it from someone who doesn't know me. Someone who won't be playing favorites.
Please understand that I do appreciate the compliments, but I need to know the truth about myself. No man knows themselves as well as they think they do.
I've always asked the members not to hold back with me. To tell me the truth even if I wouldn't like it. I need to know that.
So tell me. Tell me everything, and DON'T HOLD BACK.
Everyone, tell me everything I did wrong.
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Post by OT on Feb 16, 2008 21:34:33 GMT -4
When you're a leader, you have to be an example, a symbol. I can't afford to make mistakes. But when I do like I did today, everyone suffers. It's demoralizing, faith breaking, untrust worthy, and disillusioning. OK, so what happened? You're my best friend here Kayla, but I need more than a friends opinion. I need to hear it from someone who doesn't know me. Someone who won't be playing favorites. Everyone, tell me everything I did wrong. This is personally biased, but you taking a leap right over my reply to WL's and acting like it doesn't exist doesn't really put you in a good spotlight for me. You can't play favorites either.
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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 21:53:32 GMT -4
I'm sorry OT. I wasn't thinking. I haven't been using my thinking ability a lot lately.
To reply to your reply let say this:
What happened was that I reprimanded Ryota and Falkundude for talking about an adult web site. I then had Ryota remove a picture feature pronounced cleavage, it was a distasteful picture to me. I don't want that kind of smut on my site. Then it was brought to my attention that Shelltoon had been posting pics from a site called 4chan, and I didn't say anything. That made me look real bad. I honestly didn't notice. Then I accused Ryota of using his friends to defend his behavior. Falkundude let me have it for that. Later I was looking through DA and found a new journal entry by Ryota. He totally ripped into me and what's more, his friends supported him. I was called power hungry, immature, and an ass. If they believed that, then surely this site is doomed. Solely because it is my site.
I have many friends, but Kayla's friendship is one I value the most. But if I depended on my friends to carry one like always, to pull through, then I would be doing the same thing I accused Ryota of. THAT is hypocritical and unjust.
That's why I ask of everyone, not just my friends, of everything I did wrong. If I don't know then I can't fix it.
I don't know if I'm conveying this right.
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Post by OT on Feb 16, 2008 22:18:22 GMT -4
It's ok, I figured you wouldn't have done it on purpose. Never hurts to check though. What happened was that I reprimanded Ryota and Falkundude for talking about an adult web site. I then had Ryota remove a picture feature pronounced cleavage, it was a distasteful picture to me. I don't want that kind of smut on my site. Then it was brought to my attention that Shelltoon had been posting pics from a site called 4chan, and I didn't say anything. That made me look real bad. I honestly didn't notice. If you didn't know then it was an honest mistake. From what I know, Shelltoon hasn't posted any sexually explicit pictures, (yet, you never know what that Shelly might be up to ) and if Ryota posted up a sexually explicit picture it really shouldn't be an excuse if the pictures came from related websites. The pictures themselves should be in question, not the websites they come from. Later I was looking through DA and found a new journal entry by Ryota. He totally ripped into me and what's more, his friends supported him. I was called power hungry, immature, and an ass. If they believed that, then surely this site is doomed. Solely because it is my site. Well people will say a lot of things when they're angry. And friends usually agree with their friends, and don't question their judgement. I wouldn't sweat it.
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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 22:28:00 GMT -4
I sweat it, because I hurt someone. I hurt someone.
I hurt him and his friend.
I hate pain and I don't wish it on anyone, but I did it.
How do I get past that?
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Post by White Lightning on Feb 16, 2008 22:33:31 GMT -4
If you didn't know then it was an honest mistake. From what I know, Shelltoon hasn't posted any sexually explicit pictures, (yet, you never know what that Shelly might be up to ) and if Ryota posted up a sexually explicit picture it really shouldn't be an excuse if the pictures came from related websites. The pictures themselves should be in question, not the websites they come from. Shelltoon never posts sexualy explict pictures. He knows the rules and bounderies. However, Ryota dose post sexulay explict and provoctive pictures with female charaters with large brests, reaveling clothing, and lightly clad. I didn't say anything about them, because I wasn't so shure what was allowed and what wasn't. The only thing I fugured was that it was OK as long as the charaters had clothing on.
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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 22:42:48 GMT -4
If you want to post a girl in a bikini fine, but not anything provocative or distasteful.
Do I have the right to say that?
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Post by White Lightning on Feb 16, 2008 22:43:54 GMT -4
Yes you do. You have as much of a right as I have.
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Post by Zero on Feb 16, 2008 22:48:41 GMT -4
Heh, it seems every time I try to keep the site clean, I get called a despot, dictator, or power-mad.
So let me ask again. Do I have that right?
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Post by White Lightning on Feb 16, 2008 22:55:19 GMT -4
Yes you do. Don't let no one call you that. You're only doing what is right. Not to you, but everyone else. Even though we are teens and toung adults, this is a site for a cartoon about teenage robot. Its ment for teeenagers. You do have to put into mind that in all walks of life, there is always that one person who is going to rebel and do anything to brake the rules for spite. You have to take action, weather some see it as a good thing, or others unjust. What you are doing/saying is true, and absulite justicest. You are really like Superman to me. I look up to you as a symbol of what is right in the world, and a HERO. You saved me from myself many a times. You even saved this forum from Chevelle. Without you, I would have killed myself a long time ago. You made me see the good inside of me, and told me that I was the most loved person. Now, its my turn agian.
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Post by OT on Feb 16, 2008 22:56:49 GMT -4
If you didn't know then it was an honest mistake. From what I know, Shelltoon hasn't posted any sexually explicit pictures, (yet, you never know what that Shelly might be up to ) and if Ryota posted up a sexually explicit picture it really shouldn't be an excuse if the pictures came from related websites. The pictures themselves should be in question, not the websites they come from. Shelltoon never posts sexualy explict pictures. That was what I said. I sweat it, because I hurt someone. I hurt someone. I hurt him and his friend. C'mon man. You can't be taking it that seriously. People get hurt. Some people are more sensitive than others. You can't live life without hurting people. Whatever you say or do you always run a risk of hurting someone, that's something you have to accept if you're living in the world today. And, this is the internet. I've once been told by a dude on the net that he was gonna break my legs off after doing a show. Did I get scared from that? No. I've been insulted harshly and very graphically from time to time too, but that doesn't pierce my skin more than for an half-hour or something. After that it's gone. Because, people on the internet talk smack. When theres no risk for repercussions people like to take advantage of their liberties, and say things they normally never would, or do actually stand for. Therefor, I don't think Ryota is crying himself to sleep because of you saying something that insulted him, and you shouldn't theorize that.
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Post by OT on Feb 16, 2008 22:58:16 GMT -4
Without you, I would have killed myself a long time ago. Lets not go overboard here.
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