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Post by Machaeus on Apr 16, 2008 20:24:35 GMT -4
Sorry to be a whiny little b!tch and dump my problems on everyone, but the past hour has just been the sh!ts for me. So I wrote this. Warning: Quite coarse.
When you are your own worst enemy, When you cannot stand your own visage, When you find yourself lacking in everything you hold dear, Where the f*ck can you turn?
When someone tells you kindness but you don’t believe it, When you want to hurt yourself for every transgression, When you want to cry but the tears don’t flow, Where the F*CK can you turn?
When you call yourself weak, of body, mind, and spirit, When you wish your own body would fail to end it painlessly, When you want to unleash your anger on this horrid world, Where the F*CK can you TURN?!
When you die a little just by living a day, When your will fails you more with every passing moment, When your body is a temple, but dead on its feet, WHERE THE F*CK! CAN! YOU! TURN!
When your last sanctuary is defiled needlessly, When you feel like you’re carrying Atlas’ burden, When no one will let up, …where the f*ck can you turn?
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Post by White Lightning on Apr 16, 2008 20:37:42 GMT -4
Yeah I've been depressed today. Its just...money. My dad had $100 today. $40 of that went towards gas, and more of it went to very little food and medication my parents need. I may sound greedy, but its the fact that prices are rasing higher and higher, and my dad has to work harder and harder to bring money in. He now has $24 to his name, and....well, you know. Its just the whole money issue thats been getting me down. *sighs* I wish I can cheer you up somehow, Macheaus, but I'm in a bit of a slum too.
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Post by Zero on Apr 16, 2008 20:43:47 GMT -4
So...
You tell me your life's been way off line, you're falling to pieces every time and I don't need no carryin' on. You had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around, you say you don't know, you tell me don't lie, you work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day, the camera don't lie. You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day.
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Post by Machaeus on Apr 16, 2008 20:44:40 GMT -4
WL - Well, that sure dwarfs my problems, at least in my eyes. Mom has a saying - if everyone put their problems in a big circle and looked at everyone else's, they'd always take their own right back. How true is that, huh? There's another saying - it's always darkest before the dawn. I can only hope that's true for all of us. *Hugs*
Zero - Uh, basically. So what's that from?
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Post by White Lightning on Apr 16, 2008 20:46:50 GMT -4
Its from a song. I now the title, but not who sings it.
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Post by Zero on Apr 16, 2008 20:48:26 GMT -4
Hahaha. "Bad Day" by Danial Powter.
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Post by falkun on Apr 16, 2008 22:06:33 GMT -4
So... You tell me your life's been way off line, you're falling to pieces every time and I don't need no carryin' on. You had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around, you say you don't know, you tell me don't lie, you work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day, the camera don't lie. You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day. sorry, but thats so corny. as for you guys. i dont really know what i can say to make you guys feel better, because i dont think ive ever felt that sad before. if i knew what to say, id say it. {but im not gonna resort to cheesy yet catchy songs)
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Post by Zero on Apr 16, 2008 22:27:53 GMT -4
I know. I was being silly.
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Post by Machaeus on Apr 16, 2008 22:47:23 GMT -4
Well, that was a while ago, thankfully. I recovered, but I was taking a -5 penalty to my Wisdom checks for a while there...
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Post by sonicheroes4ever on Apr 16, 2008 23:19:34 GMT -4
I've been depressed lately too....I don't know why.....Imaybe because I get sicker in the spring than in the winter.
But I'm glad you're feeling better Machaeus..
Nice Poem!
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Post by avgjoehero on Apr 17, 2008 15:27:09 GMT -4
Yeah I've been depressed today. Its just...money. My dad had $100 today. $40 of that went towards gas, and more of it went to very little food and medication my parents need. I may sound greedy, but its the fact that prices are rasing higher and higher, and my dad has to work harder and harder to bring money in. He now has $24 to his name, and....well, you know. Its just the whole money issue thats been getting me down. *sighs* I wish I can cheer you up somehow, Macheaus, but I'm in a bit of a slum too. I think the economy is putting a toll on a lot of us. The mortgage crisis, raising gas prices, even George Bush declining Hilary Clinton's plan to stop the recession before it begins (back in 2007). If things keep up the way they are, well... global competition rises and that spells "WW3". Hopefully things change before it gets to that point when we get a new president (my vote on Democrat Barack Obama)
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Post by White Lightning on Apr 17, 2008 20:09:37 GMT -4
Even though I can care less about politics, I do agree that our ecomomy is epicly failing now.
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Post by Machaeus on Apr 30, 2008 18:29:31 GMT -4
*Sigh* Monday, Tuesday, and today have all been pretty nasty to me. I finally snapped today, and now I'm in deep sh!t over it. THE B@STARD PUSHED MY BUTTONS ENDLESSLY AND HE'S BASICALLY GETTING OFF SCOT-FREE! IF THAT'S THE WAY THE SO-CALLED "REAL WORLD" WORKS, THEN COUNT ME OUT OF THAT POS! I was reduced to tears today and Monday of this week, back into my habits of self-loathing and -wounding (no, no sharp implements were involved), and my stomach and heart are feeling sick. I just want to throw up all my major organs and rot - I feel as though I'd be doing the world a bigger favor as compost than as the waste of space I am now. The worst part is that even with my stupid medication, this is business as usual!
...I'd give so much to just end it...preferrably doing something noble in the process, but I'm too much of a piece of work for Karma to allow that to happen.
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Post by Zero on Apr 30, 2008 18:55:52 GMT -4
Here's something that happend to me high school.
There was this kid who didn't like me. He continuosly insulted me and kept me from group activities. He went around telling everyone not to work with or help me. I told the teacher, but she told me to tolerate it. Then one day he got in my face, and I shoved him away. The teacher got mad at me and wanted to put me in anger managment. I tried to tell her that it wasn't fair of her to let him bully me, but then she responded by saying: "Well, I've known him longer, and you're from New York." Out of desperation, I called my father and told him what happened. That very day, without my knowledge, my father went up to the school and confronted the teacher. she apologized to me the next day.
Mach, the real world will always be geared agianst us. The best we can do is try every peacible option first, before taking matters into our own hands. It helps to know someone who trusts and believes in you.
If you don't have someone you trust, then you need to look for one. We all need to trust SOMEBODY.
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Post by Machaeus on Apr 30, 2008 19:14:34 GMT -4
The only people I trust, I'm separated from...my parents are basically incapable of interfering as far as I can tell, either through their own choice or some other thing I can't think of in a rage-hazed mind. Likely the second, seeing as how f*cking stupid I am ANYWAYS.
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